The voices in my head

I’m counselling the voices in my own head. But it’s important in order to find my way back to get along with myself again. Because I feel like that’s what’s tripping me up right now. Being hard on myself will not make me work harder. If anything it takes the joy out of everything.

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Szilvia Szekely
Scared to fail

How am I ever gonna find out how far I can go if I refuse to move forward. If I keep allowing myself to get distracted and I stop putting the work in. I’ve had phases in the past when I fell back, but never this much. Where did my motivation go? Why am I not excited about my work anymore? What am I afraid of?

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Szilvia Szekely
I think it's a wrap

…My heart just dropped. I’m so confused and sad at the same time. I can’t even look at him. I’m shaking. He gets out of the water and I decided to not make a scene in front of everyone so I just inform him that I’m going to take a shower. I’m balling my eyes out in that shower….

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Szilvia Szekely
I thought about it

I've conceptualised and been holding onto this idea, that romantic love is supposed to be unconditional. I thought about it and now I know it’s only because I’ve been hurt by it, so I’m inventing theories to protect my feelings. But it’s time to snap out of it. My friends were right. Relationships shouldn't be unconditional.

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Szilvia Szekely
What is love?

It’s funny, for so long, romantic relationships represented “true love” to me. But as time passed, and I, myself tried to get into one, some things just didn’t add up. If I “love” this guy as much as I think I do, then why do I hate him most of times?

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Szilvia Szekely
What’s done is done. (+18)

I drink his kisses like water in dry season. As his hands are sliding up and down on my body, I realise that I might have drank too much of his kisses because dry season is rapidly turning into wet season 😂

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Szilvia Szekely
I can't help it

I see him looking at me. I keep on dancing and he gets closer. Few seconds in he comes to me and grabs me again. This time he’s even more upfront and he’s ready to kiss me, when I push him away.  

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Szilvia Szekely
Hey you!

Suddenly out if nowhere I hear my phone ringing. I see it's Diablo calling. He says he'll be having some drinks with his friends from 5pm, asking if I wanted to join them.

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Szilvia Szekely
My religion - part 1

I was never made to practice any religious activity, so spiritually I have always been let loose. When I was a little girl between the age of 3 and maybe 8 I was talking to “God” and to myself quite a lot.

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Szilvia Szekely
The new arrivals 🔈

Over the past few weeks new people entered my life who are making every day enjoyable and count. I wanted to introduce the people I’m spending most of my time with lately…

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Szilvia Szekely